suspense much

he is still keeping her suspense..

i wonder what exactly happen between us..

i mean things were going so fine before this..

i really thought that he was the right guy..

he seems so perfect and all nice to me..

all the things he told me still floating in my mind everyday..

the sentence he wanted me to remember i got the message & actually understands it...

then i started to fall deeper for him

but when all these are clear, it started to fade away..

he is no longer talks to me like how he used to be..

no more text or smiley faces from him..

i started to feel the ignorance in between..

i wanted to ask so badly whats exactly happening...

is it something that i did that hurt him so bad that he is doing this to me...

if is a yes, i deserve it..

or maybe he is already into some other gal or i might not just be the someone he wanted...

for whatever the reason is, i am sure that it would have be fine for me..

all i need is just an assurance from him

so that i would not have waited blankly for nothing in return instead i could move on...

i did fall for him real deeply

& thats the reason i cried and sad since the day he stopped showing me the smile i used to see..

i wish he knew whats inside me without me telling...

every day i am waiting for him to speak out whats inside him..

& every night all i did is to cry myself to sleep...

all i want from you is just a simple and honest answer : me to move on or stay??

the spell he cast ♥

there is this girl who misses the smile of this boy

& she has been waiting day after day for him to speak out his thoughts

she wants to know how he felt

is it real for what she knew or just simply her wonders

she wanted the truth

as she already fall & has fall deeply into his spell :)

& it all begin with a smile :)

sorry for the long term MIA...

was busy with uni life and my own life as well..

fingers had been lazing around quiet alot...

so yeahh....i wasnt on my blog page till lately...

the old feeling of ______ & ______ is back once again...

is suppose to be a short and suspense post..

so gtg for now..

dats all for today... xoxo & love ♥

the truth : she is falling again ;

will he be the right one?

praying hard and wished that it would be a YES...

& you will never know how much you meant to my heart ♥ IMY

♥ obsession of her desired heart

& i cant keep my eyes off his face, stare, & everything about him..

he is tearing my consciousness apart

i just cant stop thinking bout him...♥

waiting and hunger for more happiness :)

BidaBong peeps,

sooo hows life been going on???

missing ZYU???

*thanks* :)

how r u, zyu??

doing fine?? missing us??

"for sure lah..with lots of love♥"

im feeling absolutely hyp & happy TODAY...

*why is TODAY have to be in caps??*

FYI, things hasn't been exactly nice since las week...

few of zyu's things e.g.

muah's pendrive

muah's baby blue bottle

got kidnapped by sum evil PEOPLE in my uni...

mr nice person who had been taking good care of my lost

or shud i just called you a THIEF to make things easier...

wow, THIEF... what an exact cool name for assholes rite???

thanks alot for making my life so WONDERFUL,

giving me free lesson to be more alert

so that i wont be targeted by THIEF like you...

i might not be so lucky unlucky to actually know you..

but im still praying hard that

YOU, yes YOU mr asshole

will just fall out of stairs every single time u walk on one

puke after whatever u have eaten

die begging for mercy so that you wont go to HELL for STEALING

KARMA will just haunt you for the coming up life of your totally PATHETIC life...

hope you actually enjoy using muah's pendrive with a heart of guilt...:)

once a THIEF, forever you gonna be ONE!!!

ok, enough with all the cursing and blasting...

he will eventually need to payback someday...

i have faith that GOD will not just let BRADS like him to just walkaway :)

been sneezing nonstop since the pass 5mins..

nose irritation...arghhh!!!

me no likey :(

so lets go back to my AWESOME mood...

mama and papa are all being nice n caring... "me ♥ them so so much"

both are very worry and concern bout me and my life here...

they hardly give me pressures like old days...

all they wanted from me is just try passing every sem,

try to be happy & smile more..*dats what i am actually doing*

n guess what,

my finger-crossing thingy actually works

mama & papa said "YES" :)

altho i know i suck in it

but still i cant wait to join the 4-wheeled crew...

so again, i ♥ papa mama much-o

she says,

"you actually peeped when i leaved,

i really do exist!! :)"

i am not NERDify yet :)

sometimes things just became sooo PRECIOUS

when you found out that you actually NEED more of them

& is like for the rest of your coming up life...

i miss those good old stoning days..

lazing around, staring blankly at the ceiling, day dreaming

still, time REMAINS to flow so slow..

now,

everything seems to move as if it is being FAST FORWARD sigh

so there she is,

smiling &

still trying to LIVE through the FORMAL-ise life of hers..

not all ;

but certain things really did turn out to be alot better :)

peeps i met are being all nice to me

*fingers cross-ing & praying hard that things would be better*

i start getting used with the DRESS-ing up part...

not that bad actually..

the sad part is the lecturers i had

lectures was not EXACTLY good

or

shud i just say the LECTURERS seriously need ENGLISH speaking LESSON!!!

* VOTES from MOST of us, STUDENTS*

& im still wondering how they actually pass being a LECTURE...==

i did had fun spending my weekend

with the ones i used to & still loving lots...

thanks alot guys for the wonderful BBQ :)

more outing will be plan i hope

i want more PHOTOS & TIME with u all...

please do save me from being NERDify...

p/s:i am not yet a NERD; prob a soon to be

oh yeah, zyu went for MOVIE at las...

ITS SO FLUFFY, I CAN DIE!!!! *i love u lah,agnes*

i noe im kinna slow with movie lately...

but at least i watched :)

& is SUPER awesome

OMG, is already 730!!

& i shud be studying for 2ml lectures...DAMN it!!

chaoz for now..

will try updating asap...

love ♥

& they make my everything here alot better :)

p/s:credits to JAMIE LEE for the nail polish, zyu ABSOLUTELY love it ♥

& she is not exactly smiling now...

she is not exactly laughing

she is just not herself anymore..

i need hugs;

not just hugs but lots and lots of 'em...

i wish i was blind,

so that i would not have to see what you have actually did to me..

she started crying again :(