S.H.I.T

SHITS

~da feeling is bac again...

E
M
O

~is weird rite???
~afta so long...i thot it will b gone n will not come bac...
~i will b able to go bac to da normal me v a normal life...
~n 2day is my las day of finals too...
~but yet...im not feeling any happiness, laughter inside me..
~instead i feel kinna down n erm...dats juz a weird feeling deep inside...
~i had lots of fun 2day...is fun i said...
~i went for papa john's...i went pasar malam...
~da pasar malam which i longed to go long ago....
~n then i reached home....i got a news from my bro...
~his fren had passed away...
~i knew dat boy...a cheerful, active and playful boy...
~altho i juz noe him as in noe but not noe noe...but still i feel sad n sorry for his death...
~is not bcoz im trying to b emotic...i feel so is juz bcoz i feel dat is a pity for him n sudd i feel lik life is really juz a game played by GOD, a BOM dat will explode any second n yet v will nvr noe..
~seriously, many things had been happening...
~frenz, ppl, families had showned me wat life really is...
~lies, scams, dissappointment, quarrels is wat make life stronger n is wat make u look clearly how ur life will b as time move on...
~sum1 which is vry nice n caring to me told me dat "LIFE IS ALWAYS FULL OF SHITS"
~and i agree v it...
~sumtimes is juz not a fairytale dat u used to live in..
~life ain't fairytale v perfect starting n ending with da prince will always b da hero saving da princess from avting....
~for me now...my life is real..is a fact which i muz learn to accept..
~my life which is full of sadness, emoness, shocking suprises is wat i muz go thru till da day i say gdbye to da world...
~i will try to stand strong n cont to learn from my mistakes....
~and now i did noe deeply...frenz r not avting in ur life....
~but they r neccessary for u to live on...
~is not bcoz they can offer a helping hand for u...
~but yet is bcoz they can make u learn from da mistakes u make out of them...
~is nice to hav u as a fren but it hurts to noe that it will not b a trust in between....

the skies which i used to c isn't blue anymore
but yet is getting grey n dull each n avday
may u rest in peace n let god b with you always...

AMP SQUARE

SINGING & SHOUTING K
-for 3 hours non stop-

!!! I HAD A WONDERFUL DAY!!!

!!! I HAD THE BEST ROCKING DAY EVER!!!

!!!ROCK AMP SQUARE!!!

mUACKssSs...
-LOVE YOU GUYS ALWAYS-

=.=

TRUST

izit why im mad about?
izit why im pissed off?
izit why my mood went up and down?

TRUST is wat i had given to you
TRUST is wat we used to hav
TRUST is wat bring us near
TRUST is wat i had been holding on

BUT NOW

the TRUST we used to share is no more
the TRUST we so call FRIENDSHIP is not lik we used to have
the TRUST had been cover v lies and disappointment
the TRUST is no more between us
things had juz changed
so does me n you n da TRUST v used to share

Ntg is left without TRuST

EnD Of New LiFe

MuaKSss...

~WeL...bac to my blogging time...
~lately,i hav not been updating much...
~coz im kinna lazy to twist my brain...
~i had been twist n turning my brain up n down dis days..
~EXaMs EXams eXaMs...
~STuDy sTudY sTuDy...
~dats wat i had been doing dis days...T.T
~pity me..pimples had been coming out...
~panda eyes too been appearing..
~dis whole week...
~slept at 3am da earliest....
~7am da latest..wuhu~~
~all thx to my bloved gramps aka pet aka rubbish aka benny...
~stupid fellar man...
~force me to stay up v him till 7am...
~wat kinna person is dis lah...haiz...
~but then overall...
~i had a nice week...
~i had stop complaining...
~i stopped emoing...
~i stopped getting pissed of easily...
~i stopped putting u in my mind too...
~Ausmat is gonna end soon...
~so is my college life...
~i has wonder alot...thinking bac the memories i had in ausmat...
~the frenz i noe...
~the new place i had been thru...
~the new life i had here...
~is all juz lik a miracle to me....
~im glad i came to dis course...is not bcoz is da right course...
~is bcoz im able to start a new life, new me in a new place..
~i met nice frenz who cared bout me alot...
~i did many crazy stuff dat i had nvr done b4...
~i fell for sum1 i shud not hav...n yet im able to let it go..
~it all started here...
~n soon is gonna end....but will all dis end too??
~i hope not...i 1 it to stay n remain..
~i love the new me....n i love the new you tOo...^^
~2ml having my eld for my finals...
~wish me luck n enjoy da las eLd paper for ausmat...muaKKsss.....

wanna bitch slap YOU!!!
coz u pissed me off av single time...

Its Over

Im FiNe For Now

~30th of OCt at las...
~n da month of mine is gonna end soon...
~da weird feeling seems to come bac to me again..
~i can feel dat is nearer n nearer each n everyday...
~n im ready to accept it once again into my life...
~mayb dats wat is meant for my life now...
~dis few days...

~i hav been thinking alot...
~many things had been running in n out of my mind...
~it makes me learn to view things in a vry different way...
~the pas few weeks n months...
~many things had happen...
~i had allow u left me all alone in the darkness...
~i had been thru laughter n sadness....
~smiles, jokes, tears of joy n suprises did fly pass my mind....
~tears, cry, sadness too had been shed by me quietly n all alone...
~i had seen couples quarrel from day to nite...days to weeks..
~i dun hope it will b from weeks to months n months to years...
~i had heard complaints bout giving up in the process of life...
~giving up on studies, giving up on guys, giving up on who they r, giving up on work n sum juz giv up for no reason...
~n me..i had given up too...i had given up on you...
~i had been giving out chances to you everytime...
~but yet in the end...you always let me down...
~im tired...n i need sum rest now....^^

L.O.V.E makes my eyes goes bling bling

L.O.V.E makes my H.E.A.R.T goes dup dap dup dap

L.O.V.E makes my L.I.F.E goes up and down LOVE is wat that given me M.E

RaInforesT

A FreN of Mine ToLd me...

love
&
life
is juz lik a rainforest...
it seems so peace n quiet from the outside...
but in the inside is full of danger n adventures...

you
are always the explorer in the forest...
exploring all the wonders on the forest...
in search for a precious species....
in search for shelter from the rain and danger...
in search for safety from all that had came into you juz to bring you down...

the forest is always full of traps...
traps set by the hunters....
wildlife, predators, poisonous snakes and insects...
watching over you and awaiting for your drop by...

but yet... you,the explorer...
mus always b strong and never giv up searching...
once fal...
mus always learn to stand up...
once hurt...
mus learn to mend the hurt...
v mus always learn from wat v had gain through the process...
learn from the mistakes v had make...
so that there will not b another fall or hurt....

n slowly,
when the time has come...
when you are strong enuff...
when you are tired of searching and exploring....
you will find a big shady tree awaiting for you...

from that day onwards..
it will giv you the shelther from the rain and danger...
it will giv you the safety from all that had came to you to bring you down...
it will giv you all the warm n care you needed...
it will b there always to protect you..
it will always be in you and continue to grow in your heart...

I am just a princess living in a fairytale without a prince...

leGAL DAy

ThaNks

~Happy bday to you~Happy bday to you~Happy bday to you~Happy bday to you~

~Happy bday to you~Happy bday to you~Happy bday to you~Happy bday to you~

~offICially 18 at las...
~is lik my 17th bday had juz walk pass me ytd..
~n 2day comes my 18th bday...
~time really did flies fas...
~i stil remember deeply how i had spend my 17th of Oct 2008...
~it was a tearful nite...XD
~i had been crying whole nite...is not bcoz of sum1 had broken my heart again..
~is bcoz im deeply touched by my beloved one..
~they had given me da most touching suprise i had ever wanted...
~till now tears stil fal when i look thru da gift that they had given me..
~n dats wat i had for my 17 year old...
~but dis year...being 18....

~i spend mos of my time missing da parts n da time i had for da pass 17 years...
~i had been emo n sad mos of the time...thinking of many unhappy pas dat i had been thru..
~holding onto sum things that i should had juz let it go earlier....
~i wanted a gift that wil bring me bac in time one day....
~so dat i can tel the one who love n care bout me that i love them so so much....
~n spend av second fully when im with them...
~n i noe dis is juz wat i wanted..n it wil not come true...
~but then...during 18 bday...i got it...
~is not a time machine that able to bring me bac in time...
~is not sum fairy that appear in front of me giving me 3 free wishes...
~is not sum shining star to the right that had a wonderful neverland there...
~is juz simple yet wonderful gifts n wishes that r able to bring me bac to who n where i belong...
~it mus b funny n suprise rite??wat in da world could bring a gal bac in time???
~i had a wonderful 18th bday dis years...
~altho da wishes which i expected it would b did not appear but stil...i had wat i din not expected in return...
~all da gifts that they had given me had brought me bac to who im...
~bringing me bac to the 18 years old me...
~thanks alot to all my loves one..
~you guys had given me a wonderful n awesome 18 bday i ever expected i would had...^^
~dedication to my family...
~thx alot for da cute card...my bro is being so sweet this days..XD
~altho is juz a card...but is still sweet...
~n my parents...thx alot for everything...
~i cant thk u guys lik how i thk da others...
~coz u guys r different...different in a way that is u guys had shed too much for me..
~u had brought me to da world showing me all this wonderful miracles...
~there is too much that i can say n thk u...
~anway,im sure there is one short sentences that can make me express how i feel deep inside...
~i love you mum n dad....thx once again..^^
~dedication to sunway gang aka "THE RETARD GANG"

~u guys had gav me really really big suprise on da day itself..
~u guys had brought bac the laughter i had once lost...
~u guys had shown me how to appreciate wat is right in front n juz let go of the pass n move on..
~u guys were always there for my 18 years old...

~im really indeed glad to hav u guys in my life...
~altho v had known each other not long...but deep inside...the friendship within us is as deep as the sea...
~really thx alot alot for all da wonderful gifts n suprise that u guys had planned for me..
~love always...muaksss.....
~dedication to my kuantan frens...
~1st da tp gang...really thx u guys for da bbq dat nite...
~u guys really nice...altho im not dat close v u all...but stil u guys had help me celeb my 18 bday...
~u al prepare gifts and celebration for me...

~is indeed vry vry sweet of u guys...^^thx alot alot too....

~2nd is my ji mui...
~dis time u guys make me cried once again...
~but not as tearful as las year lah...
~altho many of u are far apart from me now...
~but stil u guys spend da time n heart to prepare me v such a wonderful n touching gift...
~i was seriously suprise to recieve da gift u guys had made for me...
~looking at da video u guys had sent...in my heart..i got a feeling lik v had once again together...
~is lik so close as if v r able to touch n feel each other...but then yet stil v r stil apart..
~i juz can view u guys from da video...n looking bac at all da photos that v had taken..
~but then i stil love it so much....u guys had able to giv me da gift that i wanted most..
~bringing me bac in time once again to look at all da laughter n joy dat v had share...
~i really appreaciate wat u all had did for me...not juz for my 18 years old...but is for da pass few years v u guys...really thx alot...
~3rd..i wanna thk yew zai too....he is damn sweet lah...
~he played a bday song n mms to me as a present...
~guess wat i did instead...i keep replayed da song for few times...
~i love it so so much....
~las but not least...my gramps aka benny chai n chyang aso..

~both of u had really bring me bac in time...XD
~but anyway,i love wat u guys had did for me...
~thx alot alot....
~overall...
~thx to those who rmb my bday....XD...u guys r indeed vry vry sweet...
~thx for all da wishes...thx for all the regards...thx for avting....muaksss....
~love always....

we are so far apart,
yet our soul is so near...
is lik i can feel you were right beside me...
i noe u can feel how i felt towards you...
i noe you can hear how my heart beat when i saw you...
i juz hope u can feel my existence one day...
n turn around to me n say "i love you too"...